Dear G.J.P.,
Everyday, every moment that goes by I think of you. My brain tells me to give up, but my heart says I can't stop loving you. I spend all day dreaming of the moment you would call to say you feel the same way. As much as I try to pretend, the truth is, I can't stop loving you. I don't know how to stop.
（圖片說明：我真的很愛你，我更不能停止愛你）
I will cherish the moments we have spent together, from our very first kiss to our last. I miss the way you kiss me, the way you look at me and rub my face, I miss you calling me Ms. Maynard (because you know it gets on my nerves), I miss you missing me, I miss everything about you, I miss our phone conversations and the way we would spend hours talking about our countries and the way we grew up. But most of all I miss my best friend.
I will place the moments we've shared together in a time capsule and hide it in the most secret place of my heart. And maybe 20 years from now, if or when we meet again, maybe then we can both open the capsule together and be reminded of our wonderful friendship.
Gosh, my life stinks! I mean I finally meet the right guy and he's not available. I'm in love with you but I can't be with you.
I Cant Stop Loving You
But, I've got to tell you, for the first time in months I can finally smile because although you didn't say much the last time you called I knew you still cared.
You can keep on denying it, you can keep hiding from it, but trust me you are only lying to yourself. Everyday I ask myself why ... why do I feel this way? Why can't I stop loving you? Then it dawned on me ... you put voodoo on me! Just kidding.
Before I go I want you to know that you will always have a special place in my heart, and like I've said many times before, I do not regret anything we've done. The only thing I regret is you telling me you love me because since then you have given me nothing but the cold shoulders.
Please don't be scared, I want nothing but your friendship, well ... I do want more but I am willing to settle. I am not trying to make you feel bad or push you further away. I am just trying to make you understand what's in my heart.
I love you with all my heart ... and I will always love you, G.J.P.
Love always,
Melissa
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天啊，我的|11" rightzone="6|11">|11" rightzone="11||11" rightzone="15||11" rightzone="42||11" rightzone="11|生活一團糟！|我的意思是我遇到合適的0|人，他不可。|20" rightzone="191|我愛你|23" rightzone="109||23" rightzone="109||23" rightzone="92|23">|23" rightzone="109|2|23" rightzone="109|2但是我不能和你在一起|" leftzone="1187|1" rightzone="132|。
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但是，我得告訴你，在起初的幾個月裡，2|我終於可以微笑因為你雖然|15" rightzone="103||15" rightzone="103||||15" rightzone="103|||||||||||15" rightzone="103||15" rightzone="42||15" rightzone="49|15">|15" rightzone="151||9|沒有多說你最後一次叫我知道你仍然關心|" leftzone="1383|1" rightzone="166|。
你可以繼續否認它，你可以把它，但我相信你是唯一|17" rightzone="89||17" rightzone="89||||17" rightzone="89|||||17">|||17" rightzone="89||17" rightzone="137|17">|17" rightzone="99|對自己說謊。每天我問自己為什麼…為什麼我會有這樣的感覺？|27" rightzone="162|27">|27" rightzone="162|27">|27" rightzone="162|27">為什麼我不能停止愛你？後來我突然明白…你把我的巫術！只是開玩笑。
在我走之前我|21" rightzone="20|21">|21" rightzone="20|21">想讓你知道，9|你將永遠有一個特殊的地方在我的心裡，|23" rightzone="92|23">|23" rightzone="92|23">就像我已經說過很多次，我不9|後悔我們已經做了。我唯一的遺憾是你告訴我你愛我，因為你只給我冰冷的肩膀。
請不要害怕，|18" rightzone="30||18" rightzone="30||||18" rightzone="30||18" rightzone="118|18">||18">|18" rightzone="30||18" rightzone="118|18">我只想你們的友誼，以及…我想我願意定居。我不想讓你感覺不好或推遠。|19" rightzone="181|19">|19" rightzone="181|19">|19" rightzone="181|19">|19" rightzone="181|19">我只是想|32" rightzone="201|32">讓你明白什麼是我的心。
我從心底裡愛著你。我會永遠愛你，g.j.p.
永遠的愛，
瑪莉莎
